What’s in a Name? – Redux –

Hi, I’m Milla.

I finally got around to doing something I’ve thought about doing for a while – rebranding my blog.

On this blog, I will be focusing primarily on my lived experience of being autistic and trans going forward. I’ve been doing this for the last year or so without changing the name, but now it is official.

More specifically, I aim to blog about:

– Lived experiences, particularly as I work to rebuild my life
– Rambles that will be looked at from the lense of lived experience and intersectionality
– Political rambles, mainly around UK politics but would like to do more
– Guides and advice (ie. For transitioning in the UK)
– Anything else that wouldn’t get aired in UK mainstream media
– Links to any other things I do

Why the change?

I used to focus primarily on autism but moved away from that over time. This is mainly because the experiences of those percieved as autistic boys is very well trodden ground if it does not include a trans perspective. Therefore some originality is needed. This revamp symbolises this and makes it more official.

I am also hoping to primarily channel my online political thoughts (and more serious posts) onto my blog alongside positivity so that social media is a more positive space for myself and others. This doesn’t mean I’ll be spamming politics blogposts but what it is mean is that I can consolidate my thoughts better.

I have gone back and corrected pronouns on older blogposts as well as deleted some that don’t reflect who I sm today or I wish to rewrite (such as my blogpost on being aspec, which now I’ve transitioned I am unsure if I still feel the same way). So some reposts will go up at some point.

Why the change?

When I first started almost three years ago, I was anonymous because I was a socially anxious mess. I had no idea who I really was and internalised a lot of problematic beliefs. This was mainly due to being mistreated growing up and hence becoming vulnerable to toxic crowds as a result. I also wasn’t engaged with the disability community much so struggled to meet my needs but was also unaware of the diverse range of lived experience out there. I preferred anonymity as a result of my circumstances then, hence I chose the pseudonym Subtle.

Nowadays, Milla is proud to be themselves largely due to what I realised, discovered and learnt since starting this blog. I’m confident in who I am and despite everything, life has never been better. That said, I don’t have patience for bullshit and will be quite direct with that. I’m trans. I’m autistic. I’m an intersectional feminist. I don’t speak for everyone with my lived experience but said experiences are part of who I am.

Here is the new logo (with image description):

ID: The logo for Trans Autistic Feminist. The logo consists of a “Light it Up Gold” neurodiversity helic on top of a black trans symbol. The background is pink and the blog title “Trans Autistic Feminist” is written in purple below.

Here is a sample featured image with image description):

ID: A sample featured image for “Trans Autistic Feminist.” On the right is the blog logo which is identical to what is in the above logo image.

To the left is white text in front of a pink background that will be the title of the blogpost. This one says “Noise-Cancelling Liberation.”

I have also changed the layout a bit to reflect this change, but at the time of writing is still a work in progress.

I hope y’all continue to stick around.

Best,
Milla xx

Life and Blog Update – August 2019

(Image description of featured image above: Image is a drawing of a woman with shoulder length curly brown hair and glasses holding her hand up to do a peace sign. She is wearing purple headphones, a pink blouse and a badge with the neurodiversity symbol on it. Towards the top of the image are black flowers. In the background is the trans flag. Credit: made with @SangledHere on Twitter’s Picrew)

Hi all,  

The second post in under two weeks? This is probably a record for 2019. Anyway, I’ve decided to write a blog post giving a bit of a life update as a lot has happened as well as some notes on plans for my blog.  

So, first off, some good news. Over the last several months, I’ve come out as a woman and have taken steps to live full time. This includes changing my name legally, updating as many documents as I can as well as socially transitioning so that I am now living as Milla full time. I also completed my final year of university and graduated. This is all before I turn 22 tomorrow – or as I like to call it – my first birthday as me.  

Unfortunately, this is also a stressful time for me as my home environment has become toxic and I need social care support for independent living put in place. Hence, I’m in an awkward position as I need support transitioning into work and independent living but I am unable to relocate for the best jobs. Dealing with this has taken up a lot of my time since I came home from uni. Hopefully this time next year this support will all be in place and I’ll soon be starting a graduate scheme.  

So, where does that leave my blog? Well, firstly, because of everything going on I have struggled to devote time to my blog and helping it to grow through writing and promoting stuff. I’ve also had doubts over the direction I’d like to take the blog mainly due to imposter syndrome and the fact I didn’t feel I had much original content to add to the conversation.  

On a more positive note (and partially as a result of the above), I have decided to shift the focus of my blog towards discussing both autism and transgender issues – most notably, how these identities intersect with each other. Information about this is very difficult to find hence being trans and autistic is very poorly understood. I did experiment with this earlier in the year by blogging about this subject and found that I enjoyed writing about it. This also included my recent review of Uncomfortable Labels of which I did note that more resources of its kind need to be produced. Hence, I plan to do more on this.  

I am not sure what else I should write about aside from those two topics. I still really miss my former days in games journalism hence part of me yearns to do more gaming-related content on this blog on the lines of what I’ve done already. However, I am unsure if this is something that people would be interested in (this is also a factor as to why I haven’t written another Subtly Subjective for about a year).  

Finally, I have also been working on a vastly longer extended writing project however I wish to wait until I am further along before I discuss any details. I am currently taking a break from writing it due to my living situation however I hope to be able to get back on it soon.

So, despite the rough edges in my life right now, I’ve never felt better about myself or the life I live. Transitioning at this time was 100% the right decision for me and I can now fully apply myself towards living my life. That includes dedicating more time to my blog which I will aim to do. If anybody has any feedback or other comments about what they’d like to see on my blog, feel free to let me know in the comments. Otherwise, hope you all have a nice day. 

Milla xx